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I am up in Northern California until Sunday for my friends wedding. I spent the weekend in Tahoe and Reno partying it up with the girls. I had a great time considering I haven't been out in forever because of my teaching program. I did get a bit sunburned and have a nice white bow from my bathing suit on my back. I got to talk to Adam today for about an hour which was nice. Sometimes I get so frustrated talking to him because the signal is so bad that I have to have him repeat what he said several times. Today was nice because the signal was good so we could actually have a conversation. I told him how our puppy is being destructive again from the reports I got from the pet sitter. I think she just misses both of us. I told him how I can't wait to get home and see her again to which he responded that it wasn't fair. He misses his babies too which I think is so adorable. I do miss his help with disciplining the puppy since I am the "nice one" it is hard for me to be mean sometimes. Today I was talking with my girlfriends on the way back home and one of them asked me if I think Adam is the one. I told her yes because he is the best friend that I have ever had and he knows me. I know all of his secrets and he knows all of mine. We read each others minds and are so silly that we always have a good time together. It made me miss him more and I hope more than anything that I will get to see him soon.

Concert

So my credential program is officially over, but I am planning on going back on Monday for my class's promotion ceremony. Tonight Jess and I went to a country concert up in Oceanside. It had a variety of artists and I had a good time. However, what I noticed the most were all the couples. Seeing them together just made me miss Adam. Adam and I have only gotten to spend one summer together and it was when we first met. We spent the summer in my apartment in Pacific Beach. Looking back on that time are some of my fondest memories and sometimes I ask myself why. I think it's because we haven't gotten to make new summer memories together. This year we were supposed to go backpacking, camping, more surfing, concerts, etc. Thats not going to happen now so I have to hold on to my old memories while I wait for a time where we can make new ones. I can't wait to take him to a country concert, I'll make him wear a cowboy hat and everything! What I can't wait for the most is wrapping up in his arms when it gets cold in the evening and just being close. The problem with country concerts is that there are so many love songs that you just want your man there now. I know it will happen soon I just with I could make him come home now!

Communication

Waking of this morning I felt sad right away because I remembered that I wouldn't get to talk to Adam today. He is in the field for a gun shoot and wasn't going to bring his phone because it is supposed to rain. Today should be so exciting because I have three days left with my fifth graders but I am sad instead. I check myself, make sure to hold my tears in and go on with getting dressed for the day....

Apart Again

First, let me tell you the story of Adam of I. We met unbelievably on craigslist of all places. He had posted in the platonic section looking for a cuddle buddy. At that time in my life I had just had a huge fight with a close friend while all my other local friends were leaving the area and the current guy in my life had no time for me. I felt alone and was not too happy with life. Adam was there for me and didn't even know me. We met on the boardwalk one night and haven't been apart since...except for deployment. Adam was deployed to Kuwait last year from May until November. I missed him but things weren't so bad. I moved home with my family which helped tremendously and time flew by and he was home again. We had to get all settled again down here in San Diego, found a place to live, moved the cat in, got a puppy. I started school this January for my teaching credential and am just about finished. Things were going well until Adam was temporarily loaned out to a unit on the east coast that will be deployed to Iraq this fall. He had to leave at the beginning of June to go back east to start training. I of course could not go with him since I am finishing up school and have our life here to take care of. It is frustrating being the one left behind, continuing with the life you share while the other is off having new adventures. Some days I feel like I am just trying to survive, feed the pets, try to clean something, maybe get some sleep. Even though he is just on the east coast I feel Adam's being away deeper this time. Some days I feel like I am losing my mind and just crave a hug from him. He's not just my boyfriend but he is my best friend too and having him away is just a lonely business. Well that is all for tonight.