Challenges

Sometimes I just want to quit. I want to pack up the dogs and just leave. I hate the house that I live in, it has had so many problems since we moved in that I am ready for a change. Too bad that change won't be happening until this fall. The room in the back of the house has had flooding problems during this wet season and the carpet cleaner is coming today. I have been moving out all the furniture and after I moved a bookcase, found that there is a mushroom growing in my carpet. Also, the bookcase that I moved had mold growing on the bottom of it. The house is in complete disarray right now and part of me just wants to leave it like this and not deal with it. The other part of me is screaming for order and everything in its place. These are the times when I think life would be so much easier if Adam were here. He would be helping with all the heavy moving and would know just what to do. I'm trying to hang on, less than three months until he gets home. I just have to keep my eye on the goal. I wish I could speed up time and just make this hardship come to an end. I miss him so badly sometimes I just don't know what to do. I think just getting the house and all our stuff organized will help, we have way to much stuff. When we move we need to purge and just get rid of stuff. The dogs have helped lately by destroying my cherished stuffed animals. Oh well....

Happiness

Today is Adam's 25th birthday and it is sad that we cannot be together for it. I sent off his present last week and am hoping that he gets it soon. We are also passed our halfway point so yay!!! I cannot wait for him to get back, and we are getting so close, only 103 days to go! Maybe even less, depends on things of course with the military. Hopefully this week we will get to see orders that will be available. I'm not sure if we are going to chose right now or not because I am going to try to find a teaching job down here for next year. Adam has made me so happy lately, we've been talking about getting married a lot and he's even come up with how he wants to propose even though he won't tell me. We are hoping that maybe this fall will work for us and we can be married then. Should be interesting if I end up teaching in my first classroom as well as planning a wedding but we shall see. The anticipation for Adam coming home is starting to build, I just hope I can keep my patience. Well that is all for now since Adam is telling me that it is late and I must go to sleep!