Challenges

Sometimes I just want to quit. I want to pack up the dogs and just leave. I hate the house that I live in, it has had so many problems since we moved in that I am ready for a change. Too bad that change won't be happening until this fall. The room in the back of the house has had flooding problems during this wet season and the carpet cleaner is coming today. I have been moving out all the furniture and after I moved a bookcase, found that there is a mushroom growing in my carpet. Also, the bookcase that I moved had mold growing on the bottom of it. The house is in complete disarray right now and part of me just wants to leave it like this and not deal with it. The other part of me is screaming for order and everything in its place. These are the times when I think life would be so much easier if Adam were here. He would be helping with all the heavy moving and would know just what to do. I'm trying to hang on, less than three months until he gets home. I just have to keep my eye on the goal. I wish I could speed up time and just make this hardship come to an end. I miss him so badly sometimes I just don't know what to do. I think just getting the house and all our stuff organized will help, we have way to much stuff. When we move we need to purge and just get rid of stuff. The dogs have helped lately by destroying my cherished stuffed animals. Oh well....